There are a lot of “words” I could eliminate. Most profane. However, I think the best things I could get rid of the most are negative self talk.
Calling myself stupid or an idiot is a huge one. But, even more dangerous is saying that “I don’t give a f***” or “I don’t care.” I know these aren’t true. Why I say them a lot, I don’t really know. I think it is a defense mechanism that triggers when I don’t know how to respond.
I do care. I do give a f***. I have reasons to live and strive for a better tomorrow.
One of the best things I have learned is that I decide the outcome by how I react to things. I have to be optimistic. I have to be present. I have to always keep telling myself “I will make it.” Even through the toughest of times. Everything usually works out. Even in the most stressful of situations. I tell others that. But, I myself, need to realize the same thing.
I think it is nice to hear those words coming from others. Like loved ones. Or, even a stranger.
I know persistence is the key. Even though I often feel like giving up.
I will eventually live my dreams. I will eventually own my own land with a private skatepark built in my yard. I want it so badly. However, I think chasing money often deters my ability.
I need to practice patience more often.
I probably should meditate frequently. Or, at minimum, practice breathing exercises. I need to learn more while also noting how I react to what I just learned. Some days, it is very difficult to consume information and recall what I just consumed. Anyone else have that problem? What is your advice if you do have that issue? How do you get around it?
I will do better. I have to be better. My kids depend on me.

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